Snow cravings

I recently got into a conversation with a friend of mine about the fact that Autumn is so uneventful compared to spring. I'm not sure if that's actually the case or if it just feels like it because of the bad weather and the overall decaying state of nature.

Here in Sweden, almost all light disappears, we only see the sun for about 6 h at the moment and it's only going to get darker. Even when the sun is up, it's not as bright. Usually though fall gives away to winter and snow falls. The reflection makes everything brighter... but it's already december and still fall. To not have snow is kind of bumming me out and I really miss that little sparkle.

I mean, my mental state took a huge hit last year when I came back from China. I actually experienced the soul sucking clutches of depression almost all through out summer and although it's better. Parts of me can feel it creep back in. Food doesn't taste as great, colors aren't as bright, interests aren't as entertaining.

Now I should've anticipated this because I've been a dolt and forgotten to take my D-vitamin for like a month and have an upcoming final at the same time as I feel a cold coming on. Most people feel wouldn't feel on top of the world in my shoes, I'm sure.

Still, it's frustrating. It really sucks to be so tired it feels like all you want is too hibernate your time away, especially if you're like me and hate sleeping.

Ugh I really can't wait until the snow comes. Seriously it's gotten so bad that I considered buying that fake snow spray, but like 150kr for FAKE snow is just too much, especially when you have gifts to buy for x-mas. I guess I just have to wait and stare at pics from my cellphone until I get the real deal <3

Tolerance is a HP bar

It's not uncommon to hear things like "... is fucking ANNOYING!" or "I hope .... doesn't come next time" or even comments (often online) about how someone should die.

Why does this happen?

Well, obviously it's because what human beings believe is important are not a universal constant.
We are all raised with different mindsets, challenges and cultural heritage. Opinions and behaviors we learn early become core values. Human beings have a tendency to build how we think and act based on that first world view... yada yada yada.

This part I'm sure you have already been taught, right?

You were also taught the three choices; Concede, Win or Compromise.

But what do you do when your core is different? When you and an other party come across a conflicting value you just cannot or will not change?

In practice sometimes you cannot win, you cannot concede and you cannot compromise.
This is how flame wars on youtube, real war and even how anon hate originates. All because your initial response will be to force the other party to change.

This is where pacifism or the act of not acting becomes relevant.

You see, I have spent a looooot of my teenage years on unhealthy relationships just because it took me such along time to admit that you should not be friends with everyone. Which arguably something I had heard so many times but not understood until recently.

Everyone has a limit to just how much and in what other people are allowed to show that they're different. The more they can stand the more tolerant they are.

I like to illustrate this point with a HP bar. Every time someone does something you don't agree with, some of it gets drained. When it becomes empty you loose your ability to rationalize and let go, and by extension become exhausted.

I am very passionate human rights so sadly my HP is pretty easily drained. I get especially frustrated, sad and angry when people display intolerant behavior.

... Ironic isn't it?

I have learnt the hard way that when I feel like something is important and the other party will not change, it's best to leave. Which is easier said and done as sometimes the party in question might be an old friend or family.

Yet, some relationships cannot be salvaged no matter their origin, ok?

Even if you can't and don't want to cut ties with people, spending at least less time with them is probably for the better. People will never be perfect, but if you find yourself constantly drained by the ones you're with. Eventually you'll find that other things that usually wouldn't annoy you will add on until you start to dislike other people and yourself for no reason at all.

Also know that the emotional state that causes people to act out towards you is the same that makes you respond. At times it's best to agree to disagree and it's always best to be with people who challenge the amount of opinions you can stand.

So with that in mind... What are your kind of people? What type of different do you accept?

Ok, but can we talk about Star?

Everyone is talking about Steven Universe and Gravity Falls and while both are great shows in their own right, I haven't personally taken that much liking to them. Mostly because while the plot might be really good once you get into it, I've actually come to miss the saccharine sweetness of my weeb years and MLP obsession.

Why then have I turned to western media to fill my needs?

Thing is... the anime industry doesn't really cater to ME anymore or well anyone that's not an otaku (as in the obsessed shut-in meaning of the term). I just can't seem to find anything cute worth watching with a plot that isn't just overused cliché after trope after fan service. This problem was further explained by recently retired animation legend Hayao Miyazaki in his many interviews, so I myself won't delve deeper into this topic.

Why am I writing this then?

Because I have found a solution and her name is Star Butterfly.

That's right, I started watching Star vs. the forces of Evil and just this show. THIS SHOW.
We get to see Star who is a magical princess from an other dimension get sent to earth to learn how to use her magic responsibly, where she by coincidence teams up with your regular martial arts interested teenage boy (Marco) to combat Ludo and his evil forces (who seeks to steal her magical wand and take over her home planet). The plot is as cliché as it gets... except it's not.

Let's take Star as an example, at first glance she seems like your typical wacky upbeat heroine type character, but she's actually just a very naive and irresponsible young girl who has no idea what she's doing. Her first instinct is always to rush into things with a smile, especially battle and because she's so impulsive she often lands herself in bigger trouble than whatever she tried to fix. Because she's so clueless she can sometimes be seen as creepy by her peers but overall her charisma overrides the weird. However instead of riding into the sunset on her newfound popularity, she quickly latches onto the first person to actually critique her, Marco.

Oh sweet innocent Marco, Star's "earth" best friend. Marco is very relatable character as he is 1) SUPER socially awkward and 2) made of sarcasm and fear. He helps keep Star in line with his advice and plethora of organizers while Star helps him get out of his comfort zones in return. Their relationship whilst not being perfect, just might be the most healthy and adorkable friendship I've seen portrayed in recent years. There are of course more characters that I'm too lazy to feature here, but if I told you about them it'd be major spoilers and we wouldn't want that, would we?


The show largely deals with preteen lessons in one of the most innovative ways I've ever seen (Mewberty anyone?) without showing boring morale cookies down your throat about friendship every two seconds. It feels like it could become this generation's Kim Possible and I really hope this marks a twist back to the well written heroines that were the hallmark of late 90's and early 2000's. All in all this is the perfect crossover between a wacky western comedy and magical girl anime; with a corresponding art/music style to boot!

Honestly, what's not to love?

Hello again my old friend

Okay, so I've been gone for almost 4 years from the blogosphere and to be frank I've missed it quite a deal more than I expected. I have thought of starting up again countless times but what stopped me was always time put into other aspects of my life. For example during the swedish version of high school I chose to educate myself in a technological science, which I love in practice but, as it turns out, not theory.

Which meant that I felt very lost upon my graduation and that somehow ended in me moving to China. Pretty random course of events, I know, but really it was just me trying to escape the life I felt had been set out for me. Putting yourself in a completely different setting void of everything you've ever known has a tendency to make you realize just how important some things are to you and I found what mattered wasn't what I thought it was.

 (You can read about what happened in China here.)



Any case, the topic of this blog will be my life or well the part of my life that centers around j-fashion, cosplay and arranging words nicely. Also if you did come to stay I thoroughly apologize for the mess that is this layout. It'll be fixed within the coming week or so once I finish getting settled in Sweden again.

On that note, I'll say goodbye for now and wish you all the best with whatever you have been up to since I left.